On Becoming One

He must know, know that he’s very near tipping the calendar and passing that exciting baby to non-baby but still a baby milestone. This sweet boy has never wanted to cuddle, rock, or nuzzle but I find him finishing his bottle and curling up on my chest before he’s fully awake. That chubby hand resting on my shoulder, and his head tucked right into the sweet spot. After a few minutes he’ll pop up, give me a big toothy smile, a ma-ma-ma, and then off he goes. He never stops. {Ya’ll weren’t joking around on the difference between girls and boys.} ONE. My baby is just a few moons away from his first birthday, and I don’t know what I’m feeling.

I’m sad. Sad that a whole year with Jack {and Maggie} is over. Father Time, please slow down. I can’t even comprehend that I’ve had two kids for a year. I’m so good at faking it until I make it – I’ve even faked myself out. I’m still holding my breath that he arrives safely in my arms. And now he’s off  to the races – walking, babbling. This boy child of mine eats full blown meals and demands a fork with every sitting. How did we arrive at this point? ONE. You know at the beginning when you count weeks…he’s 6 weeks…and then those give way to months. I’m going to hold onto the months longer this time, I’ll make the switch when he’s 2.

I’m nervous. Nervous of what is to come. Nervous of my abilities to raise a compassionate, well mannered man who treats women with respect. Ohhh, that makes me nervous. And he’s of a different spirit, this one. I’ve got the first born girl down – I KNOW what is reverberating through that little brain. But this guy isn’t a first born girl, what if I don’t know how to encourage, challenge or fully engage him? Makes me nervous.

I’m excited. SO very excited for the future. ONE just sets off the fireworks. I can’t wait to hear his little voice, to find out what he loves, to scrub the knees of his pants. What will be his favorite book? He already adores his big sister, following her around like a little puppy dog begging for attention. He’s going to change me even more, teach me things and bring me places I never imagined. Learning in tandem, he and I.

I’m in love. I’m so in love with this boy. I can close my eyes and tell you where every single rubber-band left a roll on his body {and there’s A LOT}. I love his warm breath on my cheek as he dozes off at night. The way he stands on his tiptoes when he gets excited. Ma Ma Ma. Always looking for me in the room, just to make sure I haven’t strayed from his line of sight. He’s so handsome. Every single thing about him makes me smile. I totally know why my brother was my mom’s favorite. I forgive you Mom – I completely get it!

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Jessica and Sarah are tandem bloggers and self-dubbed ‘sister-cousins’ because sometimes the lines get blurred, and they wouldn’t have it any other way. Both New Orleans natives, these cousins transplanted to Houston after Hurricane Katrina and have never looked back. Jessica is the mother of twin girls, Laine and Olivia {March 2010}, and a sweet and curious one year old boy, Owen {Jan 2013}. Sarah is mom to Maggie {Aug 2011}, who keeps her on her toes, and the most adorable little brother, Jack {Nov 2013}! By day, Jessica is a stay at home mom, and Sarah works on the financial and managerial end of the healthcare industry. By naps, lunch breaks, and nights, they run an adorable children’s clothing company called The Little Crane Smocked Shoppe. Follow these two, their families, and their adventures in small business ownership on their blog…and don’t forget to show them some love at their shop too!


  1. Oh I couldn’t have said it better myself. It’s like you read my mind. Only difference is that my little man is my first. He is now 13 months and I have no idea where the time went. I hold him more now than ever…spoil him? Whatever!…I don’t care! I have never felt such love before. He has been a mom as boy so far but this past week it’s been all about da-da-da and I can’t lie, I’m somewhat jealous! I want my ma-ma-ma’s back! Congrats on mommy hood x 2 and a great blog entry!!


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